The Truth Behind The Bump

I was in my bed, crying out of frustration. It was almost 9 p.m. and my husband wasn't home yet and I hadn't had dinner yet and I had not thrown out the trash yet. I wanted to but I couldn't. Pregnancy. There's just something about the first trimester that makes you helpless and weak and - dare I say it? - useless.

It was a bleak time, a bad time, an unforgiving time... for me.

I didn't want any of it. I didn't want go through it anymore, the underbelly of the bump.

My days became nights. Most mornings were lost since I would wake up close to noon. My husband would kiss me goodbye as he would leave for work and I would only faintly remember that. I stood up to eat and then went back to lying down again. Loneliness loomed. I had no more time to spend as sleep became my ally. Closing my eyes seemed like the best solution to the endless nausea and fatigue and loss of appetite. Perhaps it would all go away? When it always seemed like night, they did...

MotherhoodDeanne BanaresFebruary 2, 2017Motherhood, Pregnancy, First Trimester, Life, Baby Comments

Marriage Bytes: For Better or For Worse

Slammed doors, raised voices, silent treatments. Morning cuddles, sweet nothings, date nights.

Pesky habits, heavy sobs, unsolved resentments. Planned surprises, silly laughter, unending conversations.

Images of love and sounds of pain - the cacophony of marriage.

Remember the vow 'for better or for worse'?

It's lived every day, in the flesh, in the ordinariness and the humdrum. There are days when it's better. There are nights when it's worse...

MarriageDeanne BanaresJanuary 12, 2017Marriage, Husband, Wife, Spouse, Promises, VoewComment

Surprise, Surprise!

This is a story of God's goodness.

No one had any idea. While I was writing Part 2 of my miscarriage experience, I was also waiting for the results of my pregnancy test. What an afternoon that was for me - I felt like I was split in half. There I was recalling the painful details of the miscarriage and at the same time, being enveloped by anxiety and wonder. No one had any idea. Not even my husband.

It was exactly a month after the surgical procedure. I had an inkling that we had conceived again. But, after what we went through, I didn't want to bank on my womanly intuition just yet...

MotherhoodDeanne BanaresJanuary 10, 2017Pregnancy, Miscarriage, Marriage, Motherhood, Positive, God, Life Comments

The Road To Beauty

There’s always something new to chase. That’s how life these days feels like, right? A fashion trend, marbled anything, faux fur loafers, the more effective diet plan, yet another ambition – the list is endless.

While we may smile as we chase…snapping and instagramming stories as we achieve our #goals, the truth is that we are all so tired of trying to keep up.

But we don’t admit it because we want to prove that we’ve got it all… thatour lives are beautiful. That we are beautiful.

Those are myths though...

Life & StyleDeanne BanaresDecember 29, 2016Coral Swimwear, Swimsuits, Beach, Beauty, Womanhood Comments

Coming Back

It's been a while, huh? I feel like I've committed a crime, allowing dust to gather on my page with no update in site. For that, I sincerely apologize. But may I tell you this, friends? While there have been no words, there have been countless thoughts and musings and inspirations. Those beauties, I don't let them escape me.

But as a writer (or as I try to be one), I have the utmost duty to transform the fleeting into the lasting. To tell the stories, both little and grand. To weave the moments into words.

Needless to say, I have a few (or many?) entries up my sleeve and I absolutely can't wait to share them with you, to finally begin another tête-à-tête.

If there's anyone out there, on the other side of the screen, thank you for waiting. Believe me, I've done my own fair share of waiting, too. And every single time, it has always been worth it.

ConversationsDeanne BanaresDecember 28, 2016Writing, Waiting, Stories Comments